He will be the one that sees beyond the smile to the tears and sorrow.

I miss the abundance of this. Now I feel like the "friends" I have now dont truely understand the meaning of being just that. They are close when they want to be and not when they should be. I'm sorry if I'm the type of person that believes you should be a best friend 100% or not at all. If you are anything less than that how can you give yourself that title? And by "they", I mean, one person in particular. Butthead.

IB= Ultimate Nerds

I have officially started the IB Diploma program and I must say, it's not quite what I expected! Even though its only the second week, I'm feeling that I might actually be able to keep up with this! Although, I'm a little worried that two months from now, I am going to DEEPLY regret my decision to take this back-breaking program. Haha.

To start with, we aren't going to have any tests that count for two years. We are going to have 2 to 3 "internal assessments" in each subject that will count up our grades. Basically, we are spending two years studying up for these major exams at the end of the program...whooo....-.- The class, on the other hand, is great! :D Well, as great as IB can be. Ha. Ha. Of course, we are all nerds, but we are one of the most accepting and social classes in our grade! Everyone that takes a look at our books and hears about our requirements, automatically label us with: GEEKS. But we take it with grace :D About 50% of our class are new members, but they fit in just well. No new guys....no surprise there.

Besides starting IB, there are lots of new things at school. Not only do we have the new cafeteria, but I am also one of the leaders for skolelaget! The first meetings have been great! Nothing super duper over the top, but just perfect. It got off to a great start :D It's really fun to be on the "board" for laget with Eivind, Joachim and Andreas! Being the only girl is pretty interesting, but just reminds me of being with my three older brothers again :P

Lots and lots and lots of fun! Can't wait to see how the rest of the year turns out!

What can I say? I'm hopeless.

So,today I was watching the movie 27 dresses and I can't help but swoon a bit. I simply the love the fact that it ends in a wedding of the movie couple, which you don't see much these days. But that's not the REAL subject of this post. The real subject has to do with what the movie got me thinking about...
After having been in my uncle's wedding two days ago, my mind has been all wrapped up in thoughts of gowns, grooms and wedding rings. It certainly didn't help to watch a movie that REVOLVES around weddings! The thing that has been on my mind, though, is just thinking about when that will be my day. When it will be me everyone stands for as I walk down the aisle. It will be me that the groom can't take his eyes off of. That will be the day, when I know that my waiting is finally over. The stress, the thoughts, the prayers, the searching... all of it is done. I finally got The One. And life can move on from there.
Maybe it's just me that thinks this way, but like I say, "I'm a hopeless romantic" :)

Ashamed?

Sometimes when I look back on my life, I can't help but feel ashamed of who I was, what I did and the things I said. All I can think about is how glad i am that Jesus has just changed me in so many indescribable ways. I truly understand now why people say that they wish they could go back and do things differently. Why did I have to be that way? Its amazing how one year seeking God, a few good friends and the Bible and can change a person and how they view the world. I just look back and want to hang my head. Why was I so naive? So blind? I have learned so much in the past 12 months that it shocks me.
All I want to say is, be careful of the seeds you sow in your life now because later you will reap the consequences. You will end up wrestling with God and having to learn how to deal with what you once were. So make each decision carefully and think about how it will effect the next one.

Summer '10

Wow... already this summer has started out in the most interesting of ways. First, I have spent the last couple of weeks with some of the most awesome of people, named, Victoria and Maria! They are just such great people and these past days have been an amazing experience. We have taken midnight boat trips, slept on little islands, went camping, had parties, sleepovers and cooking disasters. God has blessed me immensely and I cant thank him enough. And if that was a good enough start, one of my good guy friends, Engedal (thats his last name, dont laugh haha) and I have just had an absolutely hilarious conversation that, i believe, has only made us better friends. Long story short, me and a couple of my friends have thought he was into me and we saw all these signs that ended up being nothing and so it finally got so bad that I just had to ask him. SCARY, let me tell you! He pulls up into my driveway and my heart is beating faster and faster. GAAH!!! I couldnt believe I was ACTUALLY going to ask him if he was into me. I had never ever asked a guy that before! So, I asked. And we talked about what he said and we have come to a decision that we are just friends and that he isnt into me like that. :D Now, we cant help but crack up about it, but knowing that I could go to him and ask him something like that has just made me trust him even more. I know that I can talk to him and he will be honest. Oh Geez...another hilarious memory to add to our friendship! :P

Next week, I am doing the evangelizing week with my church and am soo excited to do the outside shows in town! Also, I will be driving to Sweden for one week with my friends for an awesome conferance with preachers from around the world. I know that will be a week with teachings from God and an experience I will never forget.Summer of 2010? I am so glad to meet you....

:)Family(:

Today has been a good day. After waking up at 8 o' clock this morning, i looked out the window to see the sun shining and not a cloud in the sky. Although, i had to take two buses to get home, in order to watch my younger siblings, i was in a strangely good mood. I got home only to find out that i actually didnt need to be there and plans had changed, but i wouldnt let that ruin my day. I decided that i would take a walk with my little brother and sister to the shops and library and just have a nice time. The library didnt open until 12 o' clock so we had to wait a bit anyway. My little brother went outside to play, while i did some things around the house. My little baby sis was fussing and i knew she wasnt feeling to well, so i fed her some apple slice and then decided to give her a nice little bath. She was just so cute splashing around in the water and after i put some lotion on her and rubbed her back. After the warm bath and nice back rub, she began to quiet down a bit, so i took her to the living room and warmed a bottle of milk for her. Then i laid back on the sofa with her on my stomach and fed her the milk. After a few minutes, she silently slipped off into a peaceful slumber, right there in my arms. Best feeling in the world. I fell asleep soon after and there we were, sister and sister sleeping. I couldnt help but think to myself, "I hope one i get to experience what it is to be a mother..." The rest of the day got better. My dad came home with two new books he had bought for me and then we went to the shops and walked around together. A day of relaxation and contentment =)

Six Steps to Mr. Six Pack

So, yesterday i had my first conversation with Mr. McHottie as friends =D We had a really great time and it was a really big thing. And he really makes me happy =P So, i was telling my bff solveig about it and we were just having so much freaking fun out of it, cracking jokes and laughing like crazy about it. Anyway, one of the things we were joking about is that our, "plan" was working. And we decided that his code name is Six pack...hahahaha.... so here are our "joke" six steps to get YOUR six pack man =P

Step One:

Find the guy that really makes you smile and makes your heart sigh with happiness

Step Two:

Make an impression on him... along with this, you should have small chit chats and some teasing

Step Three:

Have a major conversation with him as friends

Step Four:

Start talking to him more... get to know him as a person and when you are close enough friends, invite him to do something...AS FRIENDS...just so you can find out more of what kind of person he is....

Step Five and Six:

Well.... i havent even gotten to step four myself...so i guess you're on your own there... =P but one last piece of advice... ENJOY him hahaha =P

Kisses =*

“ I am in favor of preserving the French habit of kissing ladies’ hands - after all, one must start somewhere.

— Sacha Guitry

So, those that know me, know that i am not allowed to kiss. Shocking...i know...haha. In the beginning when kissing started to mean something, i was completely against it. I was mad at my parents that they kept me from one of life's great pleasures. I thought they were trying to conform me to there "ways", instead of letting me make my own choice.

“ Teach not thy lip such scorn, for it was made
For kissing, lady, not for such contempt.

— William Shakespeare

As i got older i was still against it. I mean, a 14 year old girl not allowed to kiss the guy she is infatuated with... come on... But being the person i am, i refused to go against my parents wishes, no matter how badly i wanted to. I had had to do that a lot with other things, this was just a harder challenge. I just took the rules with grace... and a lot of frustration, but i refused to break them. dont ask me why. Most girls at that age would have thrown the rule-book out the window and kissed the night away... but not meeee!

“ The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender.

— Emil Ludwig

Then one night, the choice was mine. Should i go against my parents and kiss this guy that i liked oh so much? Or should i "reject" him and myself... and clutch that rule-book close to my heart. It would have been so easy... a dark area...me and him... easy...oh so easy... but i pulled away. I couldnt do it. No matter how much i wanted to, no matter how much everything inside of me was screaming to just do it... i couldnt. I had been denying myself a lot of things...and for a split second i almost didnt move away. So, i still have virgin lips and after that night i started thinking...

“ How delicious is the winning of a kiss at love’s beginning.

— Thomas Campbell (via bythewayiloveyou)

I realized that if i could resist that time, then i can resist again. I came out stronger. But more then that an idea occurred to me. How great would it be to know that my very first kiss is the one My husband takes from me, when the words "You may now kiss the bride..." are spoken? How utterly romantic. I know that one day my Prince Charming will come... his face is a mystery right now to me, but i can wait. Im not saying that i will never kiss before i get married. Im not sure i can even keep that promise. But what i do know is that before i kiss any guy, i will think carefully...is this really a guy i want to give this away to? I wont make a decision now, no, each time the moment arises i will decide then. When it is staring me in the face... i will decide, but for now... my lips remain untouched... the only way that will change is if it is taken without me knowing...=*

Masquerade

Sometimes i am sick of all the masks people

wear. We all do it, but it becomes so tiring. Why is it that we feel we must hide who we really are? I mean, are we THAT afraid to be ourselves? When i look around i see that people really are scared to show their true faces, but why?

Sometimes the masks are ugly, sometimes they are scary. For some they are beautiful, sweet, kind, caring, but in the end they are just a mask. How can we ever really know a person when everyone wants to put up a front. I wonder what the world would be like if we never put up a fake face. I feel like sometimes i just want to yell at everyone to just be who they are. To just not worry. Because if everyone is themselves then no one is rejected.